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Meditation Meets Ego
Since I’ve started practicing meditation, which is really just the art of being still, I’ve begun to get clarity on what my genuine interests are. I’ve always been drawn to Eastern practices, psychology, and self-development, but I’ve dismissed them as passing interest since they didn’t quite fit with my expectation of myself or who I should be. My intention was to find a respected profession or “calling” that others would admire because that’s what my ego wants for me – to be respected and revered. Since yoga and meditation, aren’t exactly offered in MBA programs yet, they weren’t resonating with my ego… so I turned them away.
Meditation is a practice in ego management.
Lately, my ego has been under close examination, and I realize the havoc it’s been causing. Now that I know, I’m dialing into my authentic interests, and leaving my ego waiting in the parking lot.
So as it turns out, I am the girl who’s interested in Eastern practices, yoga, and psychology. I don’t have to look further than my bookshelf, or magazine subscriptions to see this. I’ve ignored my true passions all this time assuming there was something more glamorous waiting for me, but this is just how it is.
I named this blog the Skeptic Yogi as I thought it was a clever illustration on the dichotomy between modern skepticism and esoteric practices, but it appears it was more about my own ego’s battle with my own heart.
And so my heart won this battle. Finally.
Are there things you deny in yourself because you don’t want them to be true? Think about what you would be like if you had absolutely no ego. Who would you be? And what prevents you from coming out of the proverbial closet?