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Ah, so much emotion is running through me as I “whined” down my corporate career. Wow…its amazing to believe that as of this Friday, I’ll be gainfully unemployed (self inflicted of course). This is something I’ve yearned for, for such a looong time. Not to be without work per se, but to leave a job that really didn’t suit me, fulfill me, or even challenge me or bring out my greatest creative strengths.
Now that moment I’ve waited for is almost here. I’ve planned my course well, I’ve got all my ducks in a row, I’m financially set for my little mini retirement, and yet I’m still filled with anxiety. For however much I could plan, there are still some big unknowns, and some huge risks that I have to take to get myself out of this not-so-comfortable comfort zone. It’s all very big, scary and unknown, and yet a huge part of me knows this is what I need to do, and that it will work out.
As I sat here tonight retelling my fears to my wonderfully supportive beau he repeatedly reminded me that I should be reading my own blog to seek the comfort I so need right now. Basically, he was telling me that I already know what to do – stop worrying so much, stop living 6 months in the future and start concentrating on this succulent moment in life that I’ve created for myself. So why why why can’t I do just that? Instead of being uber excited for my pending trip, I’m stuck in a panic of what I’ll do when its over, what will my future career directions be, and what if I loose all my savings and end up homeless and despondent (okay, clearly this panic is getting out of hand).
Then it hit me – I obsess about the future to avoid being in the moment, and yet, I’ve got a kick ass moment to moment life.
It’s all too much for my poor anxiety ridden brain to deal with right now. The best I can do is re-read the promise I made myself yesterday to breathe, accept that I don’t have all the answers right now, and believe that its okay (even though its harder than giving up chocolate).
Meanwhile to counteract my feelings of stress and anxiety, I’m taking extra good care of myself, eating as well as I possibly can, getting oodles of sleep and not overdoing it socially on my last week of travel before the professional career ends.
Strength, support and a healthy approach is the best we can do in moments like this. I know I’ll be okay – I just have to trust!
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